Our Daily Bread

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Wednesday, August 28, 2019

Hope

Thoughts are running in my mind... non-stop.
I feel restless often times and I can't control it.
I know I'm not okay, and have been trying all this time to be.
It's been the toughest season I have been in, or is it?
I'm not quite sure but it feels like it.

Often times, a dark cloud seems to hover over me.
It tries to consume me.
And so, when it comes...
I pray.
I pray that it goes away.
I pray that it doesn't win on trying to eat me alive.
I pray for strength.
I pray that the enemy won't win.
I pray for hope.

Yes, hope.
It's one thing that keeps me going.
Hope that the dark cloud won't consume me.
Won't come back.
Ever.

My hope is in God.
I know this is true.
And I hold on to that.
And somehow, I can see some light.

Sunday, June 2, 2019

Learnings

I'm learning a lot on where I am at this point of my life. I guess the things we awe to learn never really stops whilst we're still alive. I also have realised a lot of things about myself and also with the people around me. Some made me happy, some made me really sad. But then again, that's life, right? We can't be happy all the time. The key to this is acceptance, and yes, I'm still learning to accept the things that I can't change or don't have a control on.

All these realisations stems from the fact that I did what is vital which I definitely have a control on - to seek some help, and constantly reminding myself that I'm not just my mistakes, but I'm more than that.. I am a child of God and I'm loved by Him unconditionally. That there is the main thing that keeps me going.. knowing that He is there for me no matter what.

This journey hasn't been easy. But, it makes me feel better to think that there a lot more people out there who needs so much, and are hurting so much more than me.. so, I'm thankful that I'm still able to do so much more. That is why, I'm trying to focus more on what I have, and surround myself with people who I know could lift me up and have always believed that I am more than my mistakes.. That I am more than my failures.

God has a plan. I know this for sure. It may not be revealed now but eventually it will unfold. Until then, I just need to keep holding unto Him and trust that He is in control.

I'm grateful that I am alive. I'm grateful that I'm still able to be there for the people I love and care for. I am grateful that I have God in my life, and that is all I'll ever need. Thank You, Lord, for not giving up on me.. ever!

Monday, March 18, 2019

Strength

These days, I have a heart that can praise God in all circumstance. I have a heart that puts my full trust in Him. If there is anything that is so wonderful and magical in what has happened in my life in the past few months, it is the awesome work of My King. He gave me a difficult challenge and that tough trial has lead me to rekindle my relationship with Him. He gave me the biggest challenge yet, and has shown me that I don't need anything or anyone else, only Him.. and Him alone. And, He is right. He is always right. He always manifests Himself with wonders, with questions left unanswered, with hurts that we cannot fathom, only to realise that HE IS GOD, AND HE IS MIGHTY TO SAVE ME!

So many times, I have fallen short of praising Him and calling His name.. and yes, He has missed me. He has missed me so much that He allowed heartaches and pains, just so I can call unto Him again. So I may realise that I have Him and that He is everything I need. Years went on and I was stuck. Stuck in a loop where I didn't even know I needed to be saved.. Until He's made me feel that I need Him. He's made me feel that in Him there is refuge, there is hope, there is true love.

People who knows what has happened to me would wonder, "How come I am okay?", "How can she be happy already?", "How can she act like nothing terrible has happened and that she has hurt people?". These are some of the questions I find people asking. And indeed.. it's fair to ask those questions. Although I may feel like answering them, "Why wouldn't I be happy?", "Can't I be happy or choose to be happy?". But instead of asking more questions, I look up and pray.. I pray that I will have a heart with so much strength, that I may accept the things that I cannot change.. That I may accept and understand how people react and feel. I wanted it so much to answer all their questions.. But, even if how much I try and tell them that there is only one answer.. I don't think they will ever understand that the only reason that I am breathing right now and able to smile is because I have a God that has saved me from my hurts and miseries. That I have a powerful God that I serve. That I have a God that is my true love and hope. I can only pray for others and lift them up to God. I can only pray and ask that one day, they will see, they will understand on how I am so grateful with the life I have, even though I have made mistakes, because the God I have is so loving and merciful and that He will never ever abandon me. How I wish people would know that. How I wish they will see how magical life can be when you're living in faith with God.

And so for the people that don't understand.. I have to let go, and let God. Not cutting them off in my life, but keeping a distance so I can focus on what a beautiful life is in front of me, not dwelling on the hurts and all the questions. I cannot simply dwell on the mistakes I have made, because I'm not gonna be able to move on. If I dwell on the past, it will only keep hurting me and I will continuously be stuck in that loop where I don't have an exit. I don't wanna be stuck in that. I don't wanna be in that place again.. Because now I am reminded that in God there is fullness of joy and healing. How wonderful life is! How great is my God!