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Love to all!

Monday, November 26, 2012

Realizations

In our everyday lives, we meet new, different people. Different faces. Different personalities. Different characters. Some would make us smile, some would make us laugh. Some will make us do crazy things, some will make us do the right thing. And there are some that would just start in a simple "Hello" but then would end up hurting us. People are everywhere and it's constant.. We meet and mingle with them everyday. One of the lessons I'm learning from this fact is that I don't get to judge anyone because I do know that these people have different stories, different pasts. But it's also good to learn and remember to look after myself and though being nice is always an option for me, I'm learning to be cautious.. Because knowing how to deal with people every single day can be tricky, but one thing I'm sure about this is that we learn from them and we grow. We grow to becoming a person that could embrace the reality that we cannot live alone. And we constantly grow as a person who knows how to love.. More and more. -- 271112


I know that I haven't been blogging for a long time and I actually feel a bit bad because there's been heaps of things that happened to me already in the past few months. But, in everything that's happened, all of it can be summed up into what I just posted above -- about meeting new people in our lives. I mean, this year has been a very significant one because I got to meet different people, and I should say that all of them has taught me something. I am thankful for all the people I've met. New friends. Awesome friends actually. But then, there are some of them who inflicted a great impact in me. You know, changed some of my perspectives in life. I look at it as a good thing though sometimes it does hurt. The fact that people can hurt you without them even knowing can be such a surprise especially when they don't even have the intentions to hurt you. Hence, you take the happenings in a mature way and become wise on understanding that everything happens for more than one reason.

Before, I used to believe that everything happens for a reason. Just one. But now, I came to realize that things, they don't just happen for just one reason. There are many, different reasons why they all happen. It's amazing to know and realize that, isn't it? Well, it's pretty amazing for me anyway. Why? Because along the way, you can see yourself morphing -- Becoming a person that is able to have a better understanding about yourself and about others, and I believe that this is such a great thing. Being capable to accept how people think, how they react on different kinds of situation, how they see things, how they feel.. makes you or gives you the capacity on seeing yourself on how you deal with all of it as well. And you also learn that it is possible to have no regrets in life because of the decisions you make. It is then by understanding that though we make mistakes, these mistakes can be lessons learned. And I do believe that constant learning about life is what makes us human. It is what makes us alive. So, though it may hurt (often times), we should be thankful why things happen the way they happen.

Let me end up this blog with one of the verses in the bible which is also significant on what I'm pointing out here. I actually came across this in my bible when there was this one night, a couple of weeks ago, that I couldn't get to sleep and it's like 4 o'clock in the morning already -- "For your heart will always be where your riches are." Matthew 6.21. I can say that this is linked to the realization about accepting different people in our lives. If we have the heart that is ready to accept anyone or anything, a heart that doesn't judge, a heart that is willing to embrace change, then we learn how to be happy and contented. And I believe that it is also true that when you have the heart such as this, people will always remember who you are and what they have become having you in their lives as well. So, let's make our hearts rich. Rich in kindness, rich in faith, rich in love.

Sunday, June 24, 2012

One Thing Remains

It has been a while.. Oh, wait.. It has been a long while that I haven't been blogging. Too busy? Yes, that's always the reason. Or maybe I'm just forgetting that I actually have this blog site where I can say and write everything I feel. Hmmm.. Or maybe I just didn't want to blog because I am in total denial of what's happening in my life. Total denial that I am falling to pieces once again and I'm not coping very well with the changes that's happened and the decisions I've made. Kinda sad, yeah? Funny how what I feel right now is somewhat the same with what I've blogged last time -- "Change". Another change is gonna happen. Oh, let me rephrase that.. 'Changes' are gonna happen. Too many that the anxiety I'm feeling right now is doubled, or maybe tripled, with what I've felt before. When you think that life is gonna get better after a certain change, then you'll see that it doesn't and it's getting worse. So okay, I'm being too negative and this is wrong but I do think that sometimes. :/ But to be honest, I'm glad that in everything that's happening, all the changes and worrying on this and that, one thing remains.. And it is my FAITH. Faith in Him (God) and in myself. I often forget that He is there, that He is in control of me and I couldn't do anything without Him. He should be in control. And when I am reminded of that, I suddenly feel safe as if I can do all things! I am reminded of who I am and that I have a purpose that only He knows at the moment. I am also glad that I have friends who are there to remind me that the path with Him will never be easy but the path I've chosen is definitely worth all the pain. I remembered what He said in Luke 17.6, "If you have faith the size of a mustard seed, you could say to this mulberry tree, 'Be uprooted and planted in the sea,' and it would obey you!". I once asked my Papa about this, if this is true, and he said it is but with that faith He's saying there, that faith is pure. So pure that even if it is as small as the size of the said seed, it can make wonders! I didn't get that at that time and I can say that until now I'm still not getting it. Why? Because I do know that I have faith but it is not pure where I am not able to worry about anything at all. I can say that it is somehow blurry and not firm enough that is why I often times easily break and panic. In my heart, I know that faith is there and I have the desire to make this faith strong enough for me to be able to handle things in a better, smoother way. Not worrying, not over thinking, not panicking. And I will get there. I know this faith will get there. So much for all these changes. Let's see what happens in months time. Hopefully, it's gonna be a LOT better. So help me, God.

Saturday, February 25, 2012

CHANGE

CHANGE; we don’t like it, we fear it, but we can't stop it from coming. We either adapt to change or we get left behind. And it hurts to grow, anybody who tells you it doesn’t is lying. But here's the truth.. The more things change, the more they stay the same. And sometimes, oh, sometimes change is good. And sometimes, change is.. everything. --Meredith Grey, Grey's Anatomy ♥

Sharing this wonderful quote from one of my favorite TV shows, Grey's Anatomy. I haven't been marathon-ing it for a while and I do miss it. I actually miss doing a LOT of things and this is in connection to this shared quote. Change -- it is inevitable. We cannot prevent it from happening. It happens everyday and often times we really don't want it happening but alas! It is there every single day. Sometimes it tends to stop us from the things we wanna do, things we wanna happen, things we are used to. It hurts knowing that it may lead us feeling troubled and worried but knowing and accepting that change is just there, maybe.. just maybe changing the way we think about it would make a difference. Looking at it in a more constuctive way rather than considering it as something that would destroy us. Trying to adapt to it rather than choosing to get stuck on the things we are usually doing. And it is true, sometimes change is good. We just have to deal with it in a better way. Yes, it is scary (espacially to me who's a very vulnerable person), but I am learning to feel good about it. It is amazing on how 'change' can make you a better person and I'm not saying this just for the hell of saying it but because my experiences says it all. And pfft! It is never easy, but that's how we learn and mature -- understanding that even if change may surprise you in different ways, if you know how to handle it, it could be the BEST thing!

So yeah, I am hopeful. A great change is gonna happen to me in this season of my life. I am terrified. I am scared. I am worried. I wouldn't deny all that. But I am full of HOPE, full of FAITH within myself and especially to My Creator that ALL IS WELL AND EVERYTHING IS UNFOLDING AS IT SHOULD! Now, I just remembered what my friend (Kat Casanova) told me one time, that something really good is happening and I am gonna hold on to that.

Universe, I've always wondered how wonderful my life has been since I've been present in the beauty of existing in you and though I've struggled a lot before and many more challenges are ahead of me, I should say.. It has been fruitful and my heart is grateful for EVERYTHING. God, thanks for taking care of my life in this universe You've made. Truly, I feel Your unconditional LOVE every single day.

*smiles from the bottom of my heart*

Wednesday, February 22, 2012

In The Mourning

http://soundcloud.com/aiamiming/in-the-mourning-cover

...Because this song suits this crucial stage of my life. And yes, I do love this song from one of my favorite bands, Paramore.

I can't believe that I haven't been blogging for how many months now. 2012 kicked in and yet I didn't even bother to blog here again. That is just sad. As sad as how I feel right now. :(
I was talking to Him before and actually told Him these words -- "Life sucks." As I was crying my heart out. I knew right there and then that what I said was true and at the same time not right to say, especially to Him. But I thought, He knows what's in my heart and mind already, so might as well not pretend and say "Life is beautiful" where in fact I'm in a lonley state right now and actually having this feeling that the universe is being unfair. I still can't get over the thought of blogging all this now because this is my first blog of the new year and yet it's about lonliness and confusion and cries. It is actually 1.18 a.m. and I can't sleep. That's probably the reason why I am blogging all I feel right now because I just have to. God, I am sorry if at this moment I am feeling all negative and sad, but You know the situation I am in and I'm tired. Really tired. But despite all this, I am grateful. Why? Because I know deep in me that You are gonna save me from this awful state of lonliness. I am grateful because I know that everything happens for a reason and I may not know it now, but the day would come that I would get Your message for letting all this happen. I am grateful because even if I'm feeling this way, my FAITH is growing and my TRUST in You is not failing. Geez.. I'm really doing well on ending this blog. (Didn't expect that.)

So anyway, before actually ending this, here's the beautiful lyrics of the song:

You escaped like a runaway train
Off the tracks and down again
My heart's beating like a steamboat tugging
All your burdens, on my shoulders

In the mourning I'll rise
In the mourning I'll let you die
In the mourning, all my worries

Now there's nothing but time that's wasted
And words that have no backbone
Now it seems like the whole world is waiting
Can you here the echoes fading?

In the mourning I'll rise
In the mourning I'll let you die
In the mourning, all my sorries

T-T