Our Daily Bread

Greetings!

Hello you! Yes, you! :) You're here on my page and yes, you will know me... maybe just a glimpse of me but since you're here, you can already see a part of who I am. I welcome you to my blogging world and I'm happy to have you here!

Thanks for dropping by!

Love to all!

Saturday, December 27, 2014

One of our firsts...

Our faces at 12 midnight, 251214

I just really have to post this 'coz I thought it's really cute! Teehee! ^-^

This is how we welcomed Christmas of 2014! Our first Christmas together.

Tuesday, December 23, 2014

Christmas 2014

I am excited. Wow. It's been a while since I've written something like that --- I am excited.

Truly, I am.

First Christmas with my babe (and his family).

First Christmas away from my family.

Mixed emotions, yet mostly happy and that is such a good thing to share... happiness.

I thought I would be feeling the 'hurt' as it nearly comes, but it's not too bad after all.

"You are doing well.", I said to myself.

Our First Christmas Tree in our humble home.

Monday, December 22, 2014

New Face

221214, 0029hrs

So my blog site has a new face and I'm happy!

Just sharing and this will be a quick one >.<

I hope I can write more but it's late so I will try my best soon 'coz I think I have a lot to say.

Ciao for now!

Wednesday, August 6, 2014

The Five Languages of Love

I have been wanting to read again and this particular book made me too curious that even though I'm tired and sleepy, I still wanna try and read it. Hopefully I would be able to finish this book as I know myself of being too lazy after a couple of pages. Mind you, this book may not be very interesting to some but I think this has caught my attention because of the happenings in my life at the moment. This would mean that I am wanting to be a better partner. So... Let's see what this book has to offer!

Btw, I still wanna blog that long-update-about-what's-been-happening-to-my-life blog. I might have time when we get our internet connection back.

See yous later dudes!


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Sunday, July 27, 2014

Busy

I HAVE BEEN VERY BUSY IN LIFE AND I'M NOT JOKING! >.<

I really hope I was joking with what I just said, but that is the truth and nothing but the truth. Fortunate in a way, because despite everything that I have to do, I'm proud to say that I'm coping pretty well. It makes me a bit sad though because I haven't blogged in like two months but I will try my best to blog longer soon with more updates on what's been happening to me and my colorful life (literally, colorful...like sometimes I'm so blue, or grey or yellow like the sun...mostly grey though becuase it's winter and it's so cold. Brrrr! Lucky I have my snuggle buddy!!! :D)

Anyway, that's it for now and I will get back here with more soon...like very soon! As soon as I can soon!

Monday, May 5, 2014

Joyfulness - May is here!

I know being busy is never a good excuse but please forgive me for not blogging for the whole month of April (it's more like, "forgive yourself, Christine, 'coz I know it's a bit hard for you to accept that you haven't been blogging 'coz you're too occupied for the past two months).

So okay, I'm here now and I actually need my beloved diary to remind me of the events that happened for the past month. I have a feeling that this will be longer than I wanted it to be but oh well, it's a month I missed so...

29.03.14 -- I sat the OET exam! OMG! It was intense and tough and difficult and stressful! But everything was expected. I mean, all the things I've reviewed for were there and though I found it really challenging, I survived the day... and though I remember myself so drained upon coming home, I'm glad to know that I did my best and that's all I could really do.

The next day, I left this note to Gilbert...

...because this is another BIG thing that's happened. I was really surprised and happy when he asked me to move in with him a couple of months ago. Happy and scared, but mostly happy :D It is a BIG thing and I said "Yes." :) Not just because I can, but because I believe that this will make our relationship stronger... plus, he is a wonderful man and I love him... How could I say no? :)

The last two weeks of March, on top of reviewing for the exam and working, was the busy-ness of packing stuff and cleaning...



First week of April -- packing, packing and more packing.
03-04.04.14 -- I was on leave from work to get all the 'moving out, moving in' sorted. My mum and brother are moving in with my soon to be stepdad, one of the most amazing and wise men I know, and his daughter, one of the sweetest and most beautiful girls I know. And me, officially moving in with my super duper boyfriend. :)

I have a thing for windows... and so does he.
We cook for each other :)

05.04.14 -- Gilbert and I drove to Shepparton for one of his mates wedding. It was fun and amazing. I got to know more about his friends and him, and got to witness another beautiful newly weds' special day.

THE NEWLY WEDS

ME AND GILBERT

Fast forward a bit...

17.04.14 -- My man's special day. I managed to surprise him at midnight with a cake full of mini candles :) It wasn't very easy to do this 'coz he's always there so I have to hide and organize everything with the best of my ability. And I managed to get him presents to open as well which he really liked, so.... GOAL MET! I made him happy and very special, but it's not over yet because I made reservations for us to have dinner at this parma place in the city called The Duke. He's been wanting to try out their parma there, because he likes parmas like that. So, I did and we had a lovely dinner together. :)

18..04.14 -- MORE CELEBRATIONS! The OET exam results were released online and I was on top of the world when I checked it at work and there I saw my marks! I finally passed! :D Was literally jumping with joy. Also, this day was also an extended birthday celebration for Gilbert's birthday. His mates from highschool were also there together with my group of friends. It was a fun night!

19.04.14 -- EASTER BBQ! We went to one of my friends place to celebrate Easter :) It was also a fun night. We played games like charades and I forgot what that game's name was but it involves guessing a word :/ Anyway,  it was nice with lots of nice people and of course the FOOD! Seafood!!! What??! hehe. I love seafood.

The following week was busy as well >.< I realized we're a very sociable couple.

24-25.04.14 -- Caught up with friends and...

26.04.14 -- We went to a lunch birthday celebration for my Tita (Aunt). Was struggling as I was hangover but  it was great to see my Aunt so happy celebrating her birthday with family and loved ones. :)

01.05.14 -- BBQ AT EVAN'S. Great time with great friends! and again, FOOD!!! Especially the banana cheesecake by the host! OMG! To die for!!! >.< and I'm not kidding. It's insanely beautiful.


Friends!
And then, of course because I'm getting old and couldn't keep up anymore, I got sick :( So last days of April and first days of May wasn't very nice at all 'coz I got sick and it all started with a sore throat. But, I'm well now... thanks for my awesome man who never fails to look after me, now he's the one sick :( Lucky he has a personal nurse ;) hehe.

To sum it all up, I'm feeling great. We all know that life is not perfect but I'm learning a lot from that fact. I'm learning to appreciate more the things that I have than the things that I don't. I also appreciate the people around me who always supports and cares and loves. I also learned that living with someone also makes you know yourself more as much as you know your partner more and more, and that is just such a wonderful thing. 




To be more aware of who you are and what you are. To aspire on becoming to be a better person, not just for someone, but most especially for yourself. And to never give up on trying because you will never get there if you quit on trying and just lose hope.

The official OET results
Same as life, I am not perfect. I know I can be very difficult and I struggle on gathering myself together when I get too emotional and will end up breaking down... but, I keep trying to be better and I will never give up on myself. I'm really grateful I am with someone who never fails to help me be the best that I can be, who believes in me, who loves me for who I am, and who knows and trusts that I am also that someone for him.

A new chapter of my life has begun and I know along the way I will be alright because I have people who loves me and a great God watching over me. Thank You, for making all these things possible in Your own chosen time. You never fail to amaze me, My King.

Sunday, March 23, 2014

STRONGER

Due to feeling stressed out and overwhelmed with everything that's happening in my life at the moment, of course, Christine will break down. In five days, I will be sitting the OET exam..and apart from that, many other things is going to happen very soon! I take the OET exam very seriously because 1) this is the first time I'm taking this exam; and 2) this is something that can make a great change in my life this year (with regards to my career, that is). So yesterday, I was really off. Feeling tired and unhappy. Just feeling so over everything. I just wanna stay home, do whatever I wanna do, not having to worry or think about anything... AT ALL! But I can't really do that, can I? :(

Before, I will just keep everything to myself and get stressed (alone) about it.. But God is good because He's given me someone who will be there for me no matter what. Someone who's gonna hold my hand and say, "It's going to be okay. You can do this." I am lucky. I now have someone who will try to clear my mind and will help me find solutions to problems. For him, I'm thanking God.

So I was holding on at work last night (PM shift). Was a tough one but I tried to not let the busy shift drag me down more. So while having my dinner break, I thought of stuff that could make me feel better when I get home, just to have a mini-break from everything. I asked Gilbert if we can watch a movie when I get home, and then after work, before I head back home, I will buy us some Krispy Kreme doughnuts. Then I got excited and happy. :) Yesterday ended up really good, having a smiling heart before I went to sleep.

I realized and learned things like:
1) I should learn more about not holding everything inside me whenever I feel stressed because there's going to be someone who's willing to be with me on everything now;
2) Whenever I get stressed, I have to pause and move outside of the picture, and breathe;
3) I have to think of things that I can do to make me feel better -- "MINI-BREAK!"; and
4) Once I feel better, I'll get back to the whole situation, prioritize, and work on them one by one. Not putting too much pressure on myself, but just focusing on one thing at a time.

I thought I knew all these things already but I guess it needs practice too. Also, it helps to be reminded, to surround ourselves with the right people. People who will help us up. People who believes that we can. And now that I'm feeling so much better, I can get back to my review!

I CAN DO THIS!

Thursday, March 20, 2014

Tagalog Vlog (Ika-100 na Blog)

Note: Sorry for speaking in vernacular. I really needed this. LOL

Sa mga kababayan kong Pinoy (Pilipino), tiwala lang sa Nasa Itaas. ;) Pasensya naman kung mahina, 'di gaanong maganda ang quality ng pagkakakuha ng video, 'di ko din alam pa'no ayusin hehe.


Friday, March 7, 2014

Happiness

I've always been a worrier. I worry about most things even if there's nothing to be worried about. And will you believe if I say, I even worry when I am happy? That sounds odd, isn't it? To actually be worried, when you are happy. But yes, that's how I am and I wanna change that. You're probably wondering why is that, but it's pretty simple really.


I worry when I get happy or joyous because I know it is a fact that it will not last. Life always has it's ups and downs, and when you are happy one moment, you're gonna be sad/lonely the next time. That's why I worry if I'm happy. I'm scared to be sad. It's like every time I get really excited about something, at that very moment I'm really smiling or laughing out loud, then I will come to think," Hang on... Something bad or sad is going to happen soon."

I don't like it. It's me stopping myself from being happy and just feeling the moment that has been given to me. It makes me so cautious that I'm not giving myself the whole purpose of being happy. I know I've said this before somewhere in one of my blogs -- that happiness is a choice. It really is. And though I have this weird mentality stuck in my head, that I worry when I'm happy, I actually believe that even if the whole situation is not happy, I can choose to be happy and turn the whole horrible situation around. It's not very easy. I am still struggling on practising this, but like many things that I have to work on to be a better person, I will keep trying to do this because I think it's healthy for me and for the people that I care for and love.

I am not perfect. I will never be. But I will keep trying to be perfect for My Creator because all I am is for His glory. The fact that I'm able to share these things about myself, makes me appreciate Him more, because I know that being aware and recognizing my flaws will make me better, for the reason that I wanna be better and if I can change what I can to be a better person... For myself, for the people around me, and most especially, for My King... then I will. It's never easy, but for as long as I work on it and hope that I can, then it's all good, isn't it? :)

Monday, February 24, 2014

Date Walk

It's my day off today and I get to do what I wanna do. Yay!

I always want to sleep-in on my so-called day off, but I never get it. :/ The body clock is just so used to waking up early. Sad but true. Anyway, the plan for today is to review for my OET Exam next month, but firstly, I did the chores this morning which I really like doing (No kidding, I do like it when I'm not super tired. And yes, I'm weird). Cooked us lunch and had a siesta. Then n the arvo, Gilbert and I decided to have a walk! Yes, we are going to get this healthy thing happening! Woohoo! :D We decided to have a walk towards St. Kilda beach from home, South Yarra, and we did it! Decent walk I should say -- 4.38km, one way. Took us around 50 mins just with a normal pace of walking.


Haven't had a long walk for a while, say a year. The last time I had a record on my walking/running was in November 2012! That's really bad and it made me think, I should really be walking more. But we were good and we coped well. Weather was nice for walking too! :)

We had a bit of a rest when we got there. Legs are tightening up at this stage, because I think I didn't get to do stretching before we started, which was really wrong! But oh well, we still are pretty good at this stage.

And the view when we walked down the pier at the beach... The wind strongly blowing... The smell of the beach... Aaaaahh! Nice feeling :) We are happy we did this today! More walks to come soon, maybe?
After a while, we headed back home. On our way we decided to have dinner first so we ended up dining in the chinese resto near our place... And oh, it was yum! When we got home, I still had a chance to do my OET review. I have to say, "Day off, well spent!." I'm a happy cat. *meow* =^_^=

Monday, February 17, 2014

Mobile Blogging App

While waiting for Momi to finish with her driving test.

I think the spirit of blogging is really in me. I dunno why because I'm seriously not good at it but I guess I'm really trying hard. Now, I'm using my smart phone to blog and I've just downloaded an app for blogging. I think this is a trial on how good this app actually is. I've never used my phone for blogging before so if this will do it's job well, then this will be permanent in my phone.

Cheers!


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Tremble

I was able to write a poem today. I guess the feeling in me are so great that I once again managed to write my feeling through a poem. I haven't done this for so long and I guess the last time was when I composed a song, and it started from writing a poem. It actually amazed me on how I was able to finish this poem in a short span of time... Like all the words are just flowing in my head as I was feeling all of it. Oh wow! I haven't experienced this kind of overflowing feeling for so long, and I didn't expect that once again, this kind of feelings will show. Feelings, oh, feelings... I'm full of them and it scares me... Really scares me. *sighs*

So, here it is. I hope whoever is reading this will like it.

Tremble

It's been a long while since I've felt this,
Like little pins piercing my limbs.
Nostalgic moments creeping in,
Seems like I cannot feel anything...
But the ice and fire battling together in me,
I know somewhere in me is hurting.

Is it the heart that feels everything?
When the only duty it has to do is keep on pumping?
What good is a heart then?
When it makes you feel all the burden?

Oh, yes! It's that feeling...
The fear that lurks in...
The unknown madness that looks at you with a grin...
And then you say,
"I am trembling."

Tuesday, February 4, 2014

LAST HOPE

It's been a long while since the last time I've bonded with my Zach (my guitar). Today, I actually felt the need to bond with him. I've been listening to this one particular song by one of my favorite bands, Paramore. The song is called "Last Hope", and the meaning of the song... it touches the very core of 'me' at the moment. I remember myself blogging about hope not long ago and yes, it really is what's keeping me alive. For the past few days, many things has happened and in all honesty, I'm holding on to hope. Hope that everything will be okay and the sadness that I feel within me will change into joy.

So here's a recording video I made tonight. I learned playing the song for only two hours so sorry for the mistakes, or if the recording is not very good. I tried and that's what matters, right? Hope you enjoy. The meaning of the song is really nice and I hope it will inspire you, too, as much as it's inspired me.




"Last Hope"

I don't even know myself at all
I thought I would be happy by now
The more I try to push it
I realise – gotta let go of control


Gotta let it happen
Gotta let it happen
Gotta let it happen
Just let it happen


It's just a spark
But it's enough to keep me going
And when it's dark out, no one's around
It keeps glowing


Every night I try my best to dream
Tomorrow makes it better
Then I wake up to the cold reality
And not a thing has changed


But it will happen
Gotta let it happen
Gotta let it happen
Gotta let it happen


It's just a spark
But it's enough to keep me going
And when it's dark out, no one's around
It keeps glowing


It's just a spark
But it's enough to keep me going
And when it's dark out, no one's around
It keeps glowing


And the salt in my wounds isn't burning anymore than it used to
It's not that I don't feel the pain, it's just I'm not afraid of hurting anymore
And the blood in these veins isn't pumping any less than it ever has
And that's the hope I have, the only thing I know that's keeping me alive

Alive


Gotta let it happen
Gotta let it happen
Gotta let it happen
Gotta let it happen


It's just a spark
But it's enough to keep me going
(So if I let go of control now, I can be strong)
And when it's dark out, no one's around
It keeps glowing


It's just a spark
But it's enough to keep me going
(So if I keep my eyes closed, with nobody home)
And when it's dark out, no one's around
It keeps glowing

Wednesday, January 29, 2014

VLOGGING

FIRST-TIMER. HAPPY HAPPY!


Woohoo! That went okaaaay. I'm a happy cat. Meow.  =^_____^=

Tuesday, January 28, 2014

More of Me

The beginning of this year, like any other beginning of a year, I always have this hope in me. I guess I've always had this mentality where even though dramas are always in my life, I always have the hope that good things are always gonna happen. I don't know but I think it's related to having this faith that's always been in my heart since I was just a little kid. One of the greatest gift that my parents gave me is this -- to always keep the faith in my heart. They've taught me to believe in God and put my trust in Him. Growing up, I already see life as if it's all messed up. Funny because when I have to look back on the first memories I have as a kid, they're pretty messed up...and I'd rather not say. But that's not really the idea here. The idea is despite all that, I still am standing and learning more about life. Growing up, I thought that life is always gonna be so difficult, but now I see it as a challenge. Life is full of uncertainties and misfortunes (if we wanna think it that way), but is it really? Maybe, I'm just really full of optimism at the moment or I choose to be really positive, but yes, I really am looking at life right now as the best thing there is. Related to me saying this is the reason why I started blogging in the first place -- to reveal my purpose here on earth. I think it's slowly revealing and I really wanna think it that way.

Another reason for me saying that is the fact that I now have the courage to chase my dreams! Gosh. I really am so pumped to do the things I love the most. Like, late last year, I started singing more. I got lucky to be in a band, and this year I'm pretty sure we will do more music together. I love all of them. They are lovely people. I'm so lucky to have found them. And oh my gosh! OH MY GOSH!!! I am going to an art class soon!!! I've always dreamed of being really really good at drawing and painting. So, this is it!!! YAY! And oh, I must not forget... the number one goal for this year is my nursing registration. I would really be happy just to be able to apply to the nursing board this year. Just that, and I can tick a BIG box! >.<

Can I even get more deeper on this blogging? Because I think I'm gonna be more cheesy with the next stuff that I'm gonna talk about. I said that I'm really so into doing the things I love the most...well, a great part of saying that is me choosing to share my life with a person that's been very dear to me, the man that I'm with, the man that I love... Gilbert. Believe me, it hasn't been easy at all to be where I am right now, having this feelings for him and choosing to be happy with him. Choosing to work on our relationship together. It's a fact that relationships are hard work, and this one is not exempted from that. But, I am happy and keeping the faith. I am inlove with him and it's such a beautiful feeling to have. To be able to love and be loved in return... I say that's one of the most beautiful things life could offer and I am thankful to have it.



Wow. I actually feel good after saying all that. And I know this year will be great because I am choosing 'me'. I'm choosing 'more of me' and I'm loving it!

Monday, January 20, 2014

Who Stole My Sushi?

So before going to work today, I bought some sushi for myself so I can have them for dinner at work. I got to work and I've put it in the fridge straight away. Shift started and it was going smoothly. I waited for my dinner break and when I had my turn to have it, was very keen going to the staff room. Went straight to the fridge only to find out that they were gone! I was like, "WHERE IS IT?! WHERE IS MY FOOD?!" So I searched the fridge thoroughly and I couldn't find them. :( Then I was like, "What am I gonna eat now?". Who stole my sushi?

I was keeping my cool but yes, I was pissed off. Who ever did that, that someone must be really hungry, I thought, yet is it reason enough to steal someone else's food? People tend to do things without thinking of other people. People can be selfish. People will do things to satisfy themselves. Sad reality, isn't it? But what calmed me was this fact in my head, the fact that I actually believe in karma and that karma will get him/her. KARMA -- a word so strong yet people tend to forget or ignore it, but it is so true. We all heard the sayings... "What goes around comes around." "Don't do unto others what you don't want others do unto you". Simple as that, but too hard to follow for some. It actually makes me feel so sorry for people who don't respect others. I feel sorry for people who don't actually care for other's feelings. It disgusts me, to be honest... Because if they care enough for themselves, they should know that if they would do something wrong, or would do something to hurt others, it will always, I mean ALWAYS come back to them. One thing that actually makes me feel okay after stuff like this happens is the fact that all through my life, karma has been my best friend, and will always be my best friend. You know why? Because I have eyes from up above. Eyes that can actually see every single thing that's happening. So, good luck to those who've hurt me, those who are plotting something to take me down, because I have eyes everywhere... because my best friend karma is my God, who knows and sees everything. I may not know everything, but my God knows, and like what I've always been doing, I will leave everything to Him, because it is true... I couldn't do anything without Him. I couldn't put it in any other way, My Lord is my saviour, my hero, my knight. He will always look after me. He will always save me. And He will always win the battle for me.

So to who ever stole my food, thank you. Thank you for the reminder that I am looked after by My King. Good luck to you! :)

Sunday, January 19, 2014

TWENTYFOURTEEN

This moment is amazing. I find this very moment amazing. Why? It's because I actually haven't blogged for so long, that I actually skipped a year. Yes, a year. Oh my, if I carefully think about it now, it makes me think and ask, "What's happened in that skipped year?". If I choose to answer that question, this blog will be too long, I won't be able to sleep until dawn. Anyway, I said this moment is just amazing because I finally am writing in here again and just realized how I miss blogging so much! So, HELLO 2014!

I don't know how to start talking about this year without looking at the past (last year most importantly), because it is based from there on how I am now building my life for this year. Yes, build. A word I hardly use. I don't even know how to build stuff. I even suck with playing lego before trying to actually make a dragon or even a simple truck out of the small pieces, but I always find myself trying though. I'm good with building houses! Hehe. But that is not the point here, is it?  I just said I am building my life. I will say that again... I AM BUILDING MY LIFE. This is the very first time that I'm actually able to say this with full confidence! And it feels so good that I feel like I'm going to cry soon (yes, nothing has changed, I'm still a cry baby). Wow. So much to say, so little time. So much to share, so little time to spare. *sighs* Well, since I've started this now, I think it will be nice if I really try my best to make as much entries as I can (so help me, God.), so when I get old and forgetful (not that I am not already forgetful), I will have something to read about myself or have someone read to me about myself and my wonderful life.

Fast rewind in 2013:

Jan - Feb Sucky... (sorry for the word)

Hmmm, I don't think it's a good idea to even talk about it all >.< So skip, skip, skip.

Bottom line for 2013, it has been the toughest year, I think, since I got here in Aussie and yes, I survived it! PRAISE GOD! Now, I'm stronger. I'm better. I'm wiser. And above all, I STILL have so much LOVE to give! I'm smiling while writing this because it feels good to know that on top of everything that's happened to me, my family, and loved ones, amid all the challenges, heartbreaks, and pain... GOD HAS BEEN SO GREAT that I still have so much love inside me. IT IS WONDERFUL and by far the MOST AWESOME FEELING ONE CAN HOLD. So much love that it is indeed a need for me to spread it all out everyday! Thank You, God, for everything! Your love is in me and Your love has taught me a lot last year---

LETTING GO.
MOVING ON.
FINDING THE COURAGE. 
FORGIVING. 
TAKING CHANCES.
FACING FEARS.
CHANGING THINGS THAT CAN BE CHANGED.
ACCEPTANCE.
PLANNING FOR MY OWN LIFE. 
HAVING CONFIDENCE. 
LOVING MYSELF MORE. 
BELIEVING THAT I CAN.

And I'm pretty sure there's a lot more but yes, those are the highlights. Am I lucky or am I lucky? Nope. I am blessed. Thank You, Father. You have proven once again that You are God and that if I trust in You, everything will be okay and things can only get better! :D

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL!!!