Our Daily Bread
Saturday, December 27, 2014
Tuesday, December 23, 2014
Truly, I am.
First Christmas with my babe (and his family).
First Christmas away from my family.
Mixed emotions, yet mostly happy and that is such a good thing to share... happiness.
I thought I would be feeling the 'hurt' as it nearly comes, but it's not too bad after all.
"You are doing well.", I said to myself.
|Our First Christmas Tree in our humble home.|
Monday, December 22, 2014
Wednesday, August 6, 2014
I have been wanting to read again and this particular book made me too curious that even though I'm tired and sleepy, I still wanna try and read it. Hopefully I would be able to finish this book as I know myself of being too lazy after a couple of pages. Mind you, this book may not be very interesting to some but I think this has caught my attention because of the happenings in my life at the moment. This would mean that I am wanting to be a better partner. So... Let's see what this book has to offer!
Btw, I still wanna blog that long-update-about-what's-been-happening-to-my-life blog. I might have time when we get our internet connection back.
See yous later dudes!
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Sunday, July 27, 2014
I really hope I was joking with what I just said, but that is the truth and nothing but the truth. Fortunate in a way, because despite everything that I have to do, I'm proud to say that I'm coping pretty well. It makes me a bit sad though because I haven't blogged in like two months but I will try my best to blog longer soon with more updates on what's been happening to me and my colorful life (literally, colorful...like sometimes I'm so blue, or grey or yellow like the sun...mostly grey though becuase it's winter and it's so cold. Brrrr! Lucky I have my snuggle buddy!!! :D)
Anyway, that's it for now and I will get back here with more soon...like very soon! As soon as I can soon!
Monday, May 5, 2014
So okay, I'm here now and I actually need my beloved diary to remind me of the events that happened for the past month. I have a feeling that this will be longer than I wanted it to be but oh well, it's a month I missed so...
29.03.14 -- I sat the OET exam! OMG! It was intense and tough and difficult and stressful! But everything was expected. I mean, all the things I've reviewed for were there and though I found it really challenging, I survived the day... and though I remember myself so drained upon coming home, I'm glad to know that I did my best and that's all I could really do.
The last two weeks of March, on top of reviewing for the exam and working, was the busy-ness of packing stuff and cleaning...
First week of April -- packing, packing and more packing.
03-04.04.14 -- I was on leave from work to get all the 'moving out, moving in' sorted. My mum and brother are moving in with my soon to be stepdad, one of the most amazing and wise men I know, and his daughter, one of the sweetest and most beautiful girls I know. And me, officially moving in with my super duper boyfriend. :)
|I have a thing for windows... and so does he.|
|We cook for each other :)|
05.04.14 -- Gilbert and I drove to Shepparton for one of his mates wedding. It was fun and amazing. I got to know more about his friends and him, and got to witness another beautiful newly weds' special day.
|THE NEWLY WEDS|
|ME AND GILBERT|
Sunday, March 23, 2014
Before, I will just keep everything to myself and get stressed (alone) about it.. But God is good because He's given me someone who will be there for me no matter what. Someone who's gonna hold my hand and say, "It's going to be okay. You can do this." I am lucky. I now have someone who will try to clear my mind and will help me find solutions to problems. For him, I'm thanking God.
So I was holding on at work last night (PM shift). Was a tough one but I tried to not let the busy shift drag me down more. So while having my dinner break, I thought of stuff that could make me feel better when I get home, just to have a mini-break from everything. I asked Gilbert if we can watch a movie when I get home, and then after work, before I head back home, I will buy us some Krispy Kreme doughnuts. Then I got excited and happy. :) Yesterday ended up really good, having a smiling heart before I went to sleep.
I realized and learned things like:
1) I should learn more about not holding everything inside me whenever I feel stressed because there's going to be someone who's willing to be with me on everything now;
2) Whenever I get stressed, I have to pause and move outside of the picture, and breathe;
3) I have to think of things that I can do to make me feel better -- "MINI-BREAK!"; and
4) Once I feel better, I'll get back to the whole situation, prioritize, and work on them one by one. Not putting too much pressure on myself, but just focusing on one thing at a time.
I thought I knew all these things already but I guess it needs practice too. Also, it helps to be reminded, to surround ourselves with the right people. People who will help us up. People who believes that we can. And now that I'm feeling so much better, I can get back to my review!
I CAN DO THIS!
Thursday, March 20, 2014
Sa mga kababayan kong Pinoy (Pilipino), tiwala lang sa Nasa Itaas. ;) Pasensya naman kung mahina, 'di gaanong maganda ang quality ng pagkakakuha ng video, 'di ko din alam pa'no ayusin hehe.
Friday, March 7, 2014
I worry when I get happy or joyous because I know it is a fact that it will not last. Life always has it's ups and downs, and when you are happy one moment, you're gonna be sad/lonely the next time. That's why I worry if I'm happy. I'm scared to be sad. It's like every time I get really excited about something, at that very moment I'm really smiling or laughing out loud, then I will come to think," Hang on... Something bad or sad is going to happen soon."
I don't like it. It's me stopping myself from being happy and just feeling the moment that has been given to me. It makes me so cautious that I'm not giving myself the whole purpose of being happy. I know I've said this before somewhere in one of my blogs -- that happiness is a choice. It really is. And though I have this weird mentality stuck in my head, that I worry when I'm happy, I actually believe that even if the whole situation is not happy, I can choose to be happy and turn the whole horrible situation around. It's not very easy. I am still struggling on practising this, but like many things that I have to work on to be a better person, I will keep trying to do this because I think it's healthy for me and for the people that I care for and love.
I am not perfect. I will never be. But I will keep trying to be perfect for My Creator because all I am is for His glory. The fact that I'm able to share these things about myself, makes me appreciate Him more, because I know that being aware and recognizing my flaws will make me better, for the reason that I wanna be better and if I can change what I can to be a better person... For myself, for the people around me, and most especially, for My King... then I will. It's never easy, but for as long as I work on it and hope that I can, then it's all good, isn't it? :)
Monday, February 24, 2014
I always want to sleep-in on my so-called day off, but I never get it. :/ The body clock is just so used to waking up early. Sad but true. Anyway, the plan for today is to review for my OET Exam next month, but firstly, I did the chores this morning which I really like doing (No kidding, I do like it when I'm not super tired. And yes, I'm weird). Cooked us lunch and had a siesta. Then n the arvo, Gilbert and I decided to have a walk! Yes, we are going to get this healthy thing happening! Woohoo! :D We decided to have a walk towards St. Kilda beach from home, South Yarra, and we did it! Decent walk I should say -- 4.38km, one way. Took us around 50 mins just with a normal pace of walking.
Haven't had a long walk for a while, say a year. The last time I had a record on my walking/running was in November 2012! That's really bad and it made me think, I should really be walking more. But we were good and we coped well. Weather was nice for walking too! :)
We had a bit of a rest when we got there. Legs are tightening up at this stage, because I think I didn't get to do stretching before we started, which was really wrong! But oh well, we still are pretty good at this stage.
And the view when we walked down the pier at the beach... The wind strongly blowing... The smell of the beach... Aaaaahh! Nice feeling :) We are happy we did this today! More walks to come soon, maybe?
Monday, February 17, 2014
I think the spirit of blogging is really in me. I dunno why because I'm seriously not good at it but I guess I'm really trying hard. Now, I'm using my smart phone to blog and I've just downloaded an app for blogging. I think this is a trial on how good this app actually is. I've never used my phone for blogging before so if this will do it's job well, then this will be permanent in my phone.
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So, here it is. I hope whoever is reading this will like it.
It's been a long while since I've felt this,
Like little pins piercing my limbs.
Nostalgic moments creeping in,
Seems like I cannot feel anything...
But the ice and fire battling together in me,
I know somewhere in me is hurting.
Is it the heart that feels everything?
When the only duty it has to do is keep on pumping?
What good is a heart then?
When it makes you feel all the burden?
Oh, yes! It's that feeling...
The fear that lurks in...
The unknown madness that looks at you with a grin...
And then you say,
"I am trembling."
Tuesday, February 4, 2014
So here's a recording video I made tonight. I learned playing the song for only two hours so sorry for the mistakes, or if the recording is not very good. I tried and that's what matters, right? Hope you enjoy. The meaning of the song is really nice and I hope it will inspire you, too, as much as it's inspired me.
Wednesday, January 29, 2014
Tuesday, January 28, 2014
Another reason for me saying that is the fact that I now have the courage to chase my dreams! Gosh. I really am so pumped to do the things I love the most. Like, late last year, I started singing more. I got lucky to be in a band, and this year I'm pretty sure we will do more music together. I love all of them. They are lovely people. I'm so lucky to have found them. And oh my gosh! OH MY GOSH!!! I am going to an art class soon!!! I've always dreamed of being really really good at drawing and painting. So, this is it!!! YAY! And oh, I must not forget... the number one goal for this year is my nursing registration. I would really be happy just to be able to apply to the nursing board this year. Just that, and I can tick a BIG box! >.<
Can I even get more deeper on this blogging? Because I think I'm gonna be more cheesy with the next stuff that I'm gonna talk about. I said that I'm really so into doing the things I love the most...well, a great part of saying that is me choosing to share my life with a person that's been very dear to me, the man that I'm with, the man that I love... Gilbert. Believe me, it hasn't been easy at all to be where I am right now, having this feelings for him and choosing to be happy with him. Choosing to work on our relationship together. It's a fact that relationships are hard work, and this one is not exempted from that. But, I am happy and keeping the faith. I am inlove with him and it's such a beautiful feeling to have. To be able to love and be loved in return... I say that's one of the most beautiful things life could offer and I am thankful to have it.
Wow. I actually feel good after saying all that. And I know this year will be great because I am choosing 'me'. I'm choosing 'more of me' and I'm loving it!
Monday, January 20, 2014
I was keeping my cool but yes, I was pissed off. Who ever did that, that someone must be really hungry, I thought, yet is it reason enough to steal someone else's food? People tend to do things without thinking of other people. People can be selfish. People will do things to satisfy themselves. Sad reality, isn't it? But what calmed me was this fact in my head, the fact that I actually believe in karma and that karma will get him/her. KARMA -- a word so strong yet people tend to forget or ignore it, but it is so true. We all heard the sayings... "What goes around comes around." "Don't do unto others what you don't want others do unto you". Simple as that, but too hard to follow for some. It actually makes me feel so sorry for people who don't respect others. I feel sorry for people who don't actually care for other's feelings. It disgusts me, to be honest... Because if they care enough for themselves, they should know that if they would do something wrong, or would do something to hurt others, it will always, I mean ALWAYS come back to them. One thing that actually makes me feel okay after stuff like this happens is the fact that all through my life, karma has been my best friend, and will always be my best friend. You know why? Because I have eyes from up above. Eyes that can actually see every single thing that's happening. So, good luck to those who've hurt me, those who are plotting something to take me down, because I have eyes everywhere... because my best friend karma is my God, who knows and sees everything. I may not know everything, but my God knows, and like what I've always been doing, I will leave everything to Him, because it is true... I couldn't do anything without Him. I couldn't put it in any other way, My Lord is my saviour, my hero, my knight. He will always look after me. He will always save me. And He will always win the battle for me.
So to who ever stole my food, thank you. Thank you for the reminder that I am looked after by My King. Good luck to you! :)
Sunday, January 19, 2014
I don't know how to start talking about this year without looking at the past (last year most importantly), because it is based from there on how I am now building my life for this year. Yes, build. A word I hardly use. I don't even know how to build stuff. I even suck with playing lego before trying to actually make a dragon or even a simple truck out of the small pieces, but I always find myself trying though. I'm good with building houses! Hehe. But that is not the point here, is it? I just said I am building my life. I will say that again... I AM BUILDING MY LIFE. This is the very first time that I'm actually able to say this with full confidence! And it feels so good that I feel like I'm going to cry soon (yes, nothing has changed, I'm still a cry baby). Wow. So much to say, so little time. So much to share, so little time to spare. *sighs* Well, since I've started this now, I think it will be nice if I really try my best to make as much entries as I can (so help me, God.), so when I get old and forgetful (not that I am not already forgetful), I will have something to read about myself or have someone read to me about myself and my wonderful life.
Fast rewind in 2013:
Jan - Feb Sucky... (sorry for the word)
Hmmm, I don't think it's a good idea to even talk about it all >.< So skip, skip, skip.
Bottom line for 2013, it has been the toughest year, I think, since I got here in Aussie and yes, I survived it! PRAISE GOD! Now, I'm stronger. I'm better. I'm wiser. And above all, I STILL have so much LOVE to give! I'm smiling while writing this because it feels good to know that on top of everything that's happened to me, my family, and loved ones, amid all the challenges, heartbreaks, and pain... GOD HAS BEEN SO GREAT that I still have so much love inside me. IT IS WONDERFUL and by far the MOST AWESOME FEELING ONE CAN HOLD. So much love that it is indeed a need for me to spread it all out everyday! Thank You, God, for everything! Your love is in me and Your love has taught me a lot last year---
FINDING THE COURAGE.
CHANGING THINGS THAT CAN BE CHANGED.
PLANNING FOR MY OWN LIFE.
LOVING MYSELF MORE.
BELIEVING THAT I CAN.
And I'm pretty sure there's a lot more but yes, those are the highlights. Am I lucky or am I lucky? Nope. I am blessed. Thank You, Father. You have proven once again that You are God and that if I trust in You, everything will be okay and things can only get better! :D
HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL!!!