Our Daily Bread

Greetings!

Hello you! Yes, you! :) You're here on my page and yes, you will know me... maybe just a glimpse of me but since you're here, you can already see a part of who I am. I welcome you to my blogging world and I'm happy to have you here!

Thanks for dropping by!

Love to all!

Monday, September 5, 2016

Bombing in Davao City

2nd of September 2016, at around 2230, there was a bombing that happened in Roxas Avenue of Davao City, Philippines, my hometown... and... my heart is broken.

Roxas Avenue, Davao City Bombing
(Photo not mine)

But we will not be shaken. Yes, we are hurt. We feel anger and hate... but we will stand up and we will face this challenge like any other! We are Davaoenos, and we will survive this!

On top of everything that I'm doing here in Melbourne right now, my mind and heart is back in Davao and I can't help but worry, yet I need to be stronger than this. There is nothing that I could do but to pray for the souls of those who passed away, the victims in the hospitals fighting for their lives and all their families, for my family and friends, for every Davaoenos, for all the Filipino people, and most of all for the president of the Philippines, Tatay Rodrigo Duterte, because I know this is just the beginning of our fight against drugs and crimes in the Philippines.

God, be with everyone. I truly am saddened on how the world can be full of hate, pride and anger, yet I still find faith, hope and love in it. So I pray that love will win. Love wins above all.

Tuesday, August 30, 2016

A Week Off

Mid semester break and I have to make the most out of it. Time has gone so quickly, halfway through second semester already! That's good right? That means I'm gonna finish quicker with Uni. But that also means we're getting closer to our wedding year. Yep, I have started thinking about it. A LOT.

I'm so panic-y inside and that's just me being me and I think that's normal, because hello? This is MY WEDDING >.< Lol. *deep breathes*

Anyway, on a lighter note, I am blessed with an amazing fiancé to reassure me all the time so I'm doing good so far. I think. I mean, with regards to the whole wedding thing.

Ok. I think I should stop talking about it for now and just re-focus.

Must finish this semester with good grades.

Back to my case study.

Sunday, August 14, 2016

Money

The highlight of my day is me talking about money. As hard at it may seem to talk about it to people, I had to today and I did it! I feel so much better.

Lord, thank you for all your blessings and guidance. Thank you for allowing me to voice out my concerns about money. Because yes, it's only money. We don't have to keep it in. We can talk about it. Just saying.

Saturday, August 13, 2016

15:00 hrs to 20:00 hrs

The title of this blog tells you the hours I worked today. Not much hours, as it was only a pick up shift. But yes, I worked today and I'm happy.

Still being so thoughtful about my family and relatives in the Philippines today. Hoping and praying that everything is gonna be okay.

And yes, this is me trying to write even the most simple, shortest blog. To remind myself that there is always something good in my everyday. I just need to find it sometimes.

Bye for now. I'm off to attend to my Uni stuffs.

Thank You, Lord, for all the blessings today.

Friday, August 12, 2016

Papa Sam

The other night, I couldn't sleep though I was really tired from being at Uni all day. Went to bed at around midnight and was just playing with my phone 'coz I really can't sleep. I received a message from my brother, Kuya Charles, saying, "Tol, si Papa Sam wala na.. (Papa Sam is gone)" and I replied, "What? What do you mean?" Then he explained what's happened and that he really is gone. I was in shock and so as everyone else in the Philippines of how it's all happened as it was so sudden. My heart was deeply saddened.

Papa Sam is our Uncle, older brother of my Mum. We call him Papa Sam 'coz he was like a father to all of us. He was such a kind man, a great father to my cousins. He has this aura of being able to make everyone happy around him. He was so warm and has a great humor too. But the other night, his time has come. God took him away, and said, "It's okay now. You are free."

With Papa Sam, 2009

I know Papa Sam had his hurts, pains, and sufferings deep in him too but in all the occasions I spent time with him, he wouldn't talk about them. He never complained. He never showed them. And I know that behind all the smiles and laughter, he was aching. Life for him wasn't perfect but who's life is? Yet, he lived it to the very best that he could be.

To Papa Sam:

"Papa Sam, you fought hard and lived well. You can rest now and be free from all the aches and pains, and forver be happy. We are happy that you're there now with God in heaven. Together with Auntie Nita (Your wife), Nanay (Grandma), Tatay (Granpa), Uncle Ben, and Uncle Niece. I know you all will look after us up there. We will surely miss you. I know we will see you one day, and as I said, there will be non-stop karaoke singing and dancing then. 'Til we meet again, Papa Sam. We love you."

Let us all be reminded on how we should make most out of our lives, 'coz we'll never know what's gonna happen next. We should tell the people we love that we love them, care for the people we care for. Be thankful of everyday, what we have, what we can do, who we are with... because life... life can be funny (or mean, if you wanna put it that way) in a way that it can just take away someone we really love so easily.

Thursday, August 4, 2016

Knowing Me

I haven't blogged for months and I have so many things to say. Where to start?

Oh! Oh! Oh! I got engaged!!! :) :) :)

Gilbert proposed to me on our 3rd year anniversary and gee! What a feeling!!! What an experience!!! It was magical. It was super kilig! A story worth telling... I won't write it all here though, but if you wanna know the details? Well, you'll have to ask me! LOL

Anyway, exciting things are on the way and OMGOSH! I can't wait!!! Wedding planning can be very challenging but I know it will be great. I will have to finish Uni first though, then tan-tan-tanan! Wedding bells.

So much for wedding stuff, I can't think too much about it at the moment because I am focused on Uni. Yes, I need to get my priorities right. Finish Uni first. Which takes us to the 2nd semester of 2016. Oh yeah, my grades for the subjects I took in the 1st semester were all great! (Thank You, Lord. You are awesome!) And so 2nd sem is here and I will be having a placement at the end of the year. Woohoo! How exciting! I can't wait! I'm curious how it is done here, because I only experienced being on placements in the Philippines, doing my nursing there. So yeah, it will be good to experience how they do it here. Feeling a bit nervous about it but I should be alright (right, Lord?) :D

The past few months' experiences have been so important for me. I can say one of the most important seasons of my life. The past few months introduced me to self-awareness and how it can be one of the keys to be able to live life to the fullest. The past few months took me to a completely amazing journey where I was able to understand myself more and know why I am the way I am... and wow! What a fantastic journey it has been. I have learnt so much and I hope and pray that I can practice what I've learned more and more... because I know, humans as we are, we are constantly changing. :)

I am grateful. Thank You, Lord. Thank You!

Friday, March 25, 2016

Black Saturday

Quiet time. Reflecting time. This is probably why I got too emotional watching the most recent episode of my favorite show, Grey's Anatomy.

This quote did it for me:

“We cover up injuries with tape and gauze to protect the injury to prevent infection to save the patient from further suffering. The hard part comes when you have to rip the bandage off because that can hurt like hell...
It hurts to tear that bandage off. We don’t want to see what’s underneath. But maybe it’s not the fear of the pain that holds us back. Maybe we’re really afraid to see if the wound underneath is still open or if it might actually be healing.”

-Meredith Grey, Grey's Anatomy S12E15 heart emoticon

Tuesday, March 8, 2016

International Women's Day

Just because I can, I will be posting this picture. A very powerful message reminding everyone how powerful women are!


Monday, March 7, 2016

Uni Life (so far...)

Well, what can I say? I'm pretty happy at where I am at the moment. I'm like in a situation where I have control on everything that's happening to me at this season of my life - the "back to Uni" season. I'm not gonna lie, it has been so overwhelming that during the 3-week early start, every time I come home I just wanna cry, but I stop myself from doing so, because I have to. I often times tell myself, "Suck it up, princess!" And so, I do. I suck it all up. This kind of strategy to battle stress has been quite knew to me, hence, I'm better at not crying. LOL. I still cry, like a lot, but not as much as before. Also, after the early start, it all eased up a bit, so I'm not complaining :) Plus, I have a very supportive partner who's always there for me. He has been supporting me in any way he can which I'm very thankful for.
This is us after finding out I passed the first test in Mental Health
A certain realization hit me while I'm in the middle of all the pressure I'm feeling during the early start, which has been a significant one, because it helped me cope and think of positive things. It was the thought that if I can't cope with all this stress now, how can I cope with family life? Isn't that harder? (I ask myself) I know it's harder, but if I see women with families, husband and kids, they seem to manage very well, yet they have their own struggles, too, but in a different level. So, I said to myself, "If you want a family and become a very good mother one day, you will have to balance yourself, keep your feet on the ground, never give up, and have faith." Then, having this particular conversation with myself sent me to the brighter side of things. I started to feel more inspired and motivated. And yes, it's also because from the beginning of all this hard work in life, I knew what I've always wanted.

I appreciate this season of my life because even in the early stages, it has taught me a lot already. The balance that I feel, the decisions I have to make, prioritization, being more focused on what I do, and not entertaining the negative thoughts are all lessons that I'm happily experiencing at the moment. In the midst of all this, there are also other things I think about which are very important to keep the balance, such as: my relationship to my partner, family, friends, and co-workers (because yes, I still am working), and in saying that, I still need to have that 'good feeling' when I go to work, which I have and I'm very thankful for. This only shows, I still am doing good. :)

I know this is only the start, but a good start because it teaches me how to be stable. And for me, being stable is good. Not too high, not too low. Just enough. I really hope and pray that all this lessons are not going to perish and will continue to grow in me, helping me to become more efficient and goal oriented, not just for the people that I care for and love, but most especially for myself.

For all the happenings so far, God has once again reigned on it all. Making me realize that He knows what's best for me, and the questions I have before are now slowly being answered by Him. What more can I ask for at this stage? Nothing. Knowing that He is still there and will always be there is enough. God is enough.

Saturday, March 5, 2016

To See You

To see you hurt, hurts me the most.
To see you in pain, pains me the most.
To see you drown, drowns me the most.
To see you cut, cuts me the most.

And to see you dying, kills me the most.

Tuesday, March 1, 2016

Current Mood



The I-don't-wanna-be-stuck-in-this-cage-where-it's-got-you-written-all-over-it mood.

Monday, February 29, 2016

First Day of Autumn in Melbourne 2016

This morning, I was lucky to have the time (and motivation) to get up and have a walk outside. Why did I say lucky? 'Coz you know, Melbourne weather :/ haha. It's the first day of autumn today here, too, so it's very nice to have the sun outside (yes, having the sun in this city is considered a very beautiful day).

What has been happening? Well, I'm back to Uni and the first 3 week start was intense! Not the "I-can't-do-this" intense but the "It's-very-challenging-but-I-can-do-this!" kinda intense. Going back to school is very challenging for me 'coz (1) it's been a while (like 7 years) and (2) this is a new country/city and everything is new.

I got over those thoughts and focused myself on the goal -- becoming a RN here in Aussie. There were hiccups in the beginning with regards to clinical and subjects credited for me but beginning today, it's all clear for me now. If everything goes smoothly, I will be finishing in the 1st Semester of 2018. Now, to look ahead, it's seems so far. I was dismayed for the fact that it will take me that long, but I got over it 'coz as long as I am doing what I have to and what I can, it will all be good. I will get there (eventually).

Timeline is not an issue for me now. Yes, I'm getting old. Yes, I have so much to do (still), but I realized that I should just focus and be grateful of the "now" rather that stressing my head off with things that I don't have the control on. With all this realizations, of course, is with someone who's always been by my side no matter what. The one who anchors me, the one who inspires me the most. The beginning of this year has been so challenging for both of us (already), but then I am reminded of this verse from the bible which says, "My friends, consider yourselves fortunate when all kinds of trials come your way, for you know that when your faith succeeds in facing such trials, the result is the ability to endure." (James 1:2-3) ...and I'm calm again.

It's good to look back every now and then to be aware on where you are and what has brought you there. On how far you have become and how strong you are now. I also learned to focus more on the brighter side of things 'coz if  let myself be sucked under the negative thoughts in my dark and twisty head, I wouldn't be able to endure anything. Above all, I'm always grateful to have My King inside my heart as He is the only one keeping my feet on the ground and making things possible for me and find that balance.

And yes, I'm ending this blog by saying -- The beginning of the year has been tough, but I have gone through worse things. And like before, I will always try to get my ass off the ground and fight the hell out of life.

Friday, January 15, 2016

Test

I am trying this new blogger app that I've just downloaded today. Hope this works as I am finding it challenging sometimes to not have an app in my mobile which I can use whenever I don't have the laptop with me.

Tuesday, January 12, 2016

Twenty Sixteen

This is probably my 4th attempt to write here for the new year. Every time I try to blog, something comes up and I just wanna sit down and take my time on blogging since I haven't done it in a long time. I really have to learn how to blog more and not be too concerned about not having enough time. Like, just simply blog whatever I want.

I can't really go on without looking back at 2015. It has been a full on year. Was able to travel a lot. Went to the Philippines for a holiday after 5 or so years, with Gilbert. It was wonderful and very, very special. The quality time with Gilbert, the catching up with friends and family, everything is kept in my heart. :) Then, around last week of August, we went to Vancouver, Canada for one of my friends wedding. My first time to be a bride's maid actually. That was an experience I will never forget. A lot of firsts happened there which are all very exciting! Actually, the whole experience wouldn't be the same without my partner with me. I should say, I'm blessed to have found my travel buddy. I hope we can travel more in the future.

We are looking forward for our Japan trip for my 30th birthday. Gilbert surprised me with booking us tickets to Japan! :) But after that, maybe not so much travelling for us because I will be going back to Uni (finally!) for my nursing course. I'm excited for this new journey and a little bit nervous as well. One thing I'm sure about is that I will do my best, with my great faith in God, for me to finish and be a registered nurse very soon!

And like any year, 2015 had lessons to hand me. I learned to love and accept myself more. Learned to not engage myself to people who actually don't care (at all). I learned how it's okay to not be nice all the time. I also learned how everything I feel is okay. EVERYTHING.

So, 2016, I'm going to be vulnerably honest... I'm scared as fck because I don't know what you are gonna throw on my face, but that won't stop me from achieving my goals in life and become the person I wanna be.