This morning, I was lucky to have the time (and motivation) to get up and have a walk outside. Why did I say lucky? 'Coz you know, Melbourne weather :/ haha. It's the first day of autumn today here, too, so it's very nice to have the sun outside (yes, having the sun in this city is considered a very beautiful day).
What has been happening? Well, I'm back to Uni and the first 3 week start was intense! Not the "I-can't-do-this" intense but the "It's-very-challenging-but-I-can-do-this!" kinda intense. Going back to school is very challenging for me 'coz (1) it's been a while (like 7 years) and (2) this is a new country/city and everything is new.
I got over those thoughts and focused myself on the goal -- becoming a RN here in Aussie. There were hiccups in the beginning with regards to clinical and subjects credited for me but beginning today, it's all clear for me now. If everything goes smoothly, I will be finishing in the 1st Semester of 2018. Now, to look ahead, it's seems so far. I was dismayed for the fact that it will take me that long, but I got over it 'coz as long as I am doing what I have to and what I can, it will all be good. I will get there (eventually).
Timeline is not an issue for me now. Yes, I'm getting old. Yes, I have so much to do (still), but I realized that I should just focus and be grateful of the "now" rather that stressing my head off with things that I don't have the control on. With all this realizations, of course, is with someone who's always been by my side no matter what. The one who anchors me, the one who inspires me the most. The beginning of this year has been so challenging for both of us (already), but then I am reminded of this verse from the bible which says, "and I'm calm again.
It's good to look back every now and then to be aware on where you are and what has brought you there. On how far you have become and how strong you are now. I also learned to focus more on the brighter side of things 'coz if let myself be sucked under the negative thoughts in my dark and twisty head, I wouldn't be able to endure anything. Above all, I'm always grateful to have My King inside my heart as He is the only one keeping my feet on the ground and making things possible for me and find that balance.
And yes, I'm ending this blog by saying -- The beginning of the year has been tough, but I have gone through worse things. And like before, I will always try to get my ass off the ground and fight the hell out of life.