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Greetings!

Hello you! Yes, you! :) You're here on my page and yes, you will know me... maybe just a glimpse of me but since you're here, you can already see a part of who I am. I welcome you to my blogging world and I'm happy to have you here!

Thanks for dropping by!

Love to all!

Thursday, January 31, 2019

Training Day

Today was a struggle. Like, I thought I was going to be free of migraine attacks today because the weather is nice and not too hot... but nope! I had a massive migraine attack on our manual handling taring today T-T

I struggled so much especially this morning, but I was able to excuse myself to but some meds down at the chemist, near the hospital. The meds did help a bit, but I still struggled all day :(

It only eased up on my way home, which I was so thankful about (Thank You, Lord!) So when I got home, I immediately decided to cook us dinner 'coz if not, we have nothing to eat for tonight LOL

Anyways, today has been challenging but it was still amazing! Learnt a lot of stuff, especially from the manual handling training this morning.

I am grateful for today, and I have God to thank for it. Tomorrow, I'm gonna be working on the floor for the first time!!! Woohoo! I'm really excited, but a bit nervous too! I just have to remind myself all the time that I am not alone and I have all the support that I need when I emerge myself on the floor. The staff has been so supportive to me before when I did my placement there, and I feel like everyone around me is there to support me, so I shouldn't be too hard on myself. I know... it's hard for me not to be too hard on myself, 'coz I expect myself to know a lot of things already.. and I do! I know a lot of things... but there are certainly things that I'm still not confident about. Like A LOT OF THINGS. But, I am doing this for Him, and I know that I have Him on my side no matter what. So, I'm gonna try my best to take it easy and to give my full trust in Him. I know He will look after me.

So, today has been okay all in all. My heart is grateful.

THANK YOU, LORD!!!

Wednesday, January 30, 2019

Nursing

I've been meaning to blog but it has been really busy lately. I know. Excuses, right? I'm trying though, so that's good.. I guess.

Anyway, it has been busy. I started work yesterday, and was very grateful for yesterday. I have fallen in love more on the profession that God has set for me, and most especially, I have fallen more in love to the hospital I'm in. Yesterday made me feel like I am in the perfect place where I felt like, yes! God is truly amazing on putting me in a place where my values align with theirs. How cool is that?!

They now call me "The compassion lady" and I feel good about it. The story behind that is quite long. But just know that it comes from a very good place. Also, the CEO recognised me and knows me, including the Mission Director (actually the nickname came from the Mission Director lady hehe). Anyway, these people I've mentioned are truly an inspiration. I felt like I am in good hands and in a good place. Not just from these two people but from the Graduate Nurse Coordinators and the support we get from the Practice Development Nurses. They are all truly amazing! I feel so supported already and I am truly grateful for everything and everyone! Including my colleagues, the new grad nurses from our batch in 2019. We are a bunch of great people who will be serving people in need.

"God, You are amazing! And I feel so overwhelmed on how Your work is full of love. I can feel them all, oh My Lord! You are amazing! And Papeng is right, the dawn is coming and I can nearly see it! I can nearly see the light out of all these darkness. I cry on how You make me feel so loved and cared for. That all these years... since I was in my Momi's womb, You have looked after me until now. Thank You, Lord, for everything and for everyone that surrounds me. I will keep working hard to be a better version of myself so I can give it all back to You! All the glory and praise that You deserve... because You are My King!!!"

Tonight, I will rest with a grateful heart. I thank God for all the blessings... may it be the darkness or the light... He knows what He is doing, and I praise Him with all of me.

I am so excited to embrace the Lord with this new chapter in my life. That maybe, just maybe... He took away something from my heart, and everything that I have... so I can see that He is the only one left. That He is the only one I can turn to. And yes, I humbly thank the Lord for everything that He made possible to happen, just because He loves me that way. And so, I trust in Him.. and on Him alone.

Signing off with a grateful heart.

HALLELUJAH!!! MY GOD IS FULLY ALIVE (AGAIN) IN MY HEART!!!

Thursday, January 24, 2019

Grief

A strong word. A strong feeling. A strong emotion. Something that can take over you and eat you as a whole - Grief.

Yes. I am still grieving inside. As much as I don't wanna feel it, it's there. It comes in as a tiny wave or a huge storm in my heart... and all I can do is to let myself feel it.

At this recent happening in my life, I've realised that grief comes in different forms. You can say you grieve when someone you love so much passes away. But this, this kind of grieving, I don't know how to face it sometimes. I don't know how to manage it. All I know is to allow myself to feel it and face it!

As I let myself flow with grief, I offer this intense sorrow and heartache to God, because I know that He allows us to feel anything... even grief, to remind us that He is greater than all of this. That He is mightier than grief. And so, I offer my heart unto You, oh Lord! Be with me in this tough journey, because I am nothing and no one without You! I trust in You that You are already far ahead and You know and can already see me in the future. You have made everything possible for the best of me, and for me to become your perfect child. Keep molding me Lord, so I may be able to serve you a 100%!

And so... I am grieving, but this too shall pass.

*cries*

Wednesday, January 23, 2019

Reflections of Little Christine

Wow! I haven't been blogging for I don't know how many months now...

IT HAS BEEN CRAZY!

But, I have God to thank for everything.

There are so many things to say, so little time. If I have to write it all down, it's gonna be really long... But, I'm gonna start it with saying...

GOD ANSWERS PRAYERS! I know, 'coz He just answered mine.

Life hasn't been perfect, I get that. To the point where, you start asking God, "Why is this happening to me?! Why?! :(" He definitely doesn't give you the answer right away. Nope. He will do a lot of things to show you that He is God... and that right there is simply amazing!

I'm writing this all down now like nothing tragic has happened to me recently. Like everything has been well, and everything is happy, and good. But nope. It hasn't been. And so far, it has been one of the most tragic events of my life :(

But, it has all been planned by Him. He planned it all 'coz He knows what's best for me, what I need... and it's amazing that after all these years that I have been distant from God, He never gave up on me. He watches over me, He makes sure I am loved and that He is there... He is God. I don't even know how I can express how overwhelmed I am from everything that has happened to me so far, but He continues to show me that He loves me and He has never abandoned me.

HE HAS HEARD MY PRAYERS!!!
My God is an amazing God and now I feel like I can face the world with so much power! I feel so inspired, motivated to move forward for whatever God gives me. It's amazing on how I can stand up and put my chin up, despite the fact that is has been really hard to even get out of bed, like 2-3 weeks ago... But, His love overflows. He reminds me that He is greater than all of this! Greater than whatever life throws at me... and I'm crying while typing away... because I am loved by the most amazing God in the universe. He is there. He is alive. So alive in my heart that I feel like I can conquer the world!!!

Amazing things are coming and I can't freakin' wait!!!

Thank You, Lord for everything!

And thank You for always making me feel Your love and care through people that surrounds me who embraces all of me, accepts everything that I am. I am truly grateful!

MY HEART IS FULL OF LOVE and this is all You, my God. All YOU!!!

So, how is little Christine doing? Little Christine is not a 100% yet, but she is definitely getting there. She is smiling more, laughing more, and embracing all the blessings. She still cries, and she's still hurting, but little Christine has got God, so what more can she ask for, right?

Aaaaaaaahhh~ I can't stop tears from my eyes falling and this is not because I am sad, but because I feel all the love, I feel all the joy. So, thank You Lord for everything that You have made possible, because I simply prayed for it! I prayed for it and have forgotten about it, but still, You answered it and I am simply amazed in wonder of Your love and majesty. Majesty... one of my favorite words. 'Coz when I hear it or speak of it, I simply remember the God that has looked after me from the day I was born, up to this day, the same God has nurtured me and has molded me to be His perfect child. So, yes! Today, little Christine is HAPPY!!!

Praise God and His Majesty! Praise His name above the earth!!!

YOU ARE MY GREAT GOD AND I AM SO BLESSED TO HAVE YOU IN MY HEART, SO ALIVE, AGAIN!!!

Signing off for now,

Little Christine