My heart is full of high hopes and I'm praying that my heart remains this way - full of hope. I probably say this every start of the year, but I never get to stick to it, that I would blog more. Well, I can only try, right? But, one of my goals for this year is actually that, blog more. So I thought, one of the reasons is that the goal I've set wasn't specific so my mind and heart are not wired to it. And so this year, I will make it more achievable. I will blog at least once a month. Too easy to say, yeh? But I know I would still struggle on that, although, I will keep trying to fulfill that goal. I have many goals, or let's say plans for self-growth this year. I started listing them down today, and it felt good. By now, I know that I tend to stick to a to-do list. For the past years, like for as long as I can remember, I always have a to-do list. What I didn't learn before is to have a to-do list for myself. Yes, for myself. I needed to learn that the hard way, and that's one of the most important things I have learned last year. I only realised last year that it is so important to include myself on that list. It's more on checking-in on myself, really. Like asking the simple question, "How was you're day, Little Christine?" or "How are you feeling, Little Christine?". (I call myself 'Little Christine' because it's like talking to my younger self. The younger version of me who needs to be asked that question. Who needs nurturing. Who needs to feel cared for and loved always. And I've also learned that last year from my therapist, which will probably be another blog entry one of these days).
So, yeah... I'm gonna do that - go through my 'self to-do list'. Every start, every new beginning is of course not easy. As I say to myself, and to others as well... "The beginning is always the hardest." It may be hard at the start to stick to the plans or goals I've set for myself, but I am hopeful that I will be able to live up to it, with the help of God, of course. I would't be able to do anything otherwise.
And so, how is Little Christine today? She is smiling, hopeful, and very excited for the coming SEP camp! It's her first time, too. So, to whoever is reading this right now... help us pray for the coming camp - for all the staff, the campers, the weather, and everything that we have to do. Thank you!
The start of the year serving God is such a great start! I am grateful to have this opportunity to attend as the camp nurse. Like, really overwhelmed by it - in a good way. God is so amazing! Thank You, Lord, for your love and grace. May You be with me every step of the way and work on me so I can serve You and others, in the way You wanted me to. I offer my all to You, Lord. Amen.
P.S. I gave my blog a new look - yellow. I see yellow as a colour of hope and also see it as a colour close to gold - because for me red is not the colour of love. Love to me is like a golden yellow colour - like the sun. Like the sunrise and sunset - they have yellow on them. Full of hope. Alive. Burning. Yellow is love. 💛